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Jan. 18th, 2019 07:30 pmI have too many Feelings and I am not good at Feelings and I Do Not Like It.
- the thing where you know it's impossible in ten thousand ways, it was never actually going to be possible, but when the universe gives you an actual definitive No it hurts anyway because you couldn't quite stop daydreaming unrealistically
- the thing where after ten years of no interest at all in $LifeChoice you inexplicably start kind of wanting it...? But you've spent ten years steering your life in a completely different direction so how the fuck do you even
- the thing where you have absolutely no skills related to the thing, and the one time you tried it was an unmitigated disaster
- the thing where the risk of getting hurt is way higher than any possibility of a good outcome but you can't make yourself stop wanting things you thought you never would
- the thing where you know it's impossible in ten thousand ways, it was never actually going to be possible, but when the universe gives you an actual definitive No it hurts anyway because you couldn't quite stop daydreaming unrealistically
- the thing where after ten years of no interest at all in $LifeChoice you inexplicably start kind of wanting it...? But you've spent ten years steering your life in a completely different direction so how the fuck do you even
- the thing where you have absolutely no skills related to the thing, and the one time you tried it was an unmitigated disaster
- the thing where the risk of getting hurt is way higher than any possibility of a good outcome but you can't make yourself stop wanting things you thought you never would
